Commitment

Greetings, chums! I am planning to spare some leisure time to do regular update on my blog.

Love. We all experience it. And love here refers to the kind of strong affection you have towards someone. And if you are telling me you have never loved, you are obviously lying either to me or to yourself because you are too scared or maybe too embarrassed to admit it. You must have loved at least once. No matter it is puppy love or love at first sight, for whatever love it is, it is love. It is normal to love despite your young age.

Being in love is the best thing happened to us. We wake up to good morning texts. Silly smiles. Gooey romantic texts. Butterflies in the stomach. We sleep, looking forward to waking up and spending another day with them.

Being in a relationship is a phase of getting to know each other, knowing all their imperfection and yet still accepting them for who they are. In a relationship, arguments happen. They aren't always bad. Sometimes we argue and find a way to bind us even tighter than ever. Trust me, breaking up isn't the answer to the problem in your relationship. Threatening with breakup is neither. That is why commitment is needed.

"Love is not blind. It sees but it doesn't mind"

So I have been observing people lately. Some took relationships like it is some kind of joke, some took it seriously, some took it for granted. I am so envious towards seeing how a couple could stay together for a long, long time despite all the ups and downs.

Personally, I have loved this special someone ceaselessly and have been in a relationship before. It was 5 years ago. We talked for hours, stayed up late texting each other, missed each other. We rarely met though. Once we met, it was all dream-like - the pulse-racing, butterflies, heart-wrenching. Just like couples do, we had our ups and downs. We did fight, rant, throw tantrums but we always made it in the end. Those days, I swear we were happy and carefree. It was us against the world. But things happened. I tried my best. Boredom was something I could not help. It wasn't working out though. So segregration it was. I cried, screamed in agony, ranted about how unfair life had treated me, but that could not bring everything back. I realized that but I thought maybe by letting out my tears, I could lessen the pain but the pain has never really gone away. Well, I opened my mind and then learned one thing from that. We were not committed enough. If we were, we would not be separated easily.

I get kind of traumatized in love afterwards. A future I had once imagined shattered into pieces. I lost myself. Picking up the pieces needs time. I recovered after all. People had no idea why I changed into a whole different person. All they knew was I grew up and became maturer.

I then came to a realization. It doesn't rain forever. Every problem is there to teach us. It is our choice to let it destroy us or to take it as a lesson and let it mold us to be a better person. Life is about choices. Sometimes we just have to learn it the hard way.

"You gave me a forever within numbered days and I am grateful for it"